Heldin the Deserter

[[I made a site for Heldin but it was 'frozen', which means I cannot use it. I hope I'm still
allowed to post a bio here, as I have nowhere else to post it. I'll add colors to the relationship
tracker at a later date- I didn't have enough time to today.]]

☾ B A S I C☽  

Title; Heldin DesAlten
Aliases; Mister Heldin, Hel, Murderer, Deserter

Sex; Male  

Age; IV years  

Musk; Molasses and Oats  

Breed; Unknown [considered to be a mutt]  

☀ K I N ☀  

Paternal; Krieger DesAlten IV

Maternal; Venarae DesAlten   

Siblings; 3 [2 deceased, 1 missing]  

Betrothal; None  

Offspring; None  

Affiliation; None

Niche of; Nomadic Shaman  

Aspires for; ...Unsure  

Mentor to; None [currently]  

color meanings bellow;   

Neutral - Trust - Respect - Friend - Best Friend  

Unsure - Distrust - Dislike - Hate - Loathe  

Minor Interest - Crush - Intrigue - Betrothal - Somewhat Allured to [Sexual] - Lust [Sexual] - Lover [Sexual]   

Mourn - Kin - Missing - Dead 

Pack of the Intrepidus [group]; ....I'm sorry....

Lady Cazatella; I know that I've been nothing but a disappointment.
You told me that you still respect me and understand, but I can sense your
distaste with me. At least you gave my rank to a fine suitor..


Vulcan; All I wanted to do was visit. That's all. And you made me leave...
What happened to me 'fixing' you? Now you won't let me within fifty feet
of you and the group. I understand that you may love Blitzen, and that
you're jealous of our previous bond and mad that I injured her so 
badly, but you have.. no clue. Don't let her fool you. She fooled me, too.
At first. But now I know- she wants you badly, Vulcan, and she'll 
stop at nothing to get to you. Nothing. Whether that means tracking you
down, or lying about something that pains your heart... I hope we
make up some day. I don't want to hurt you.


Blitzen; ...You. I wish the wounds had taken your life. I wish I never saved 
you from that pair of troublesome loners. I wish many things. None of my wishes
end with you being happy, and I feel little to no shame in that. 
Why must you prey upon me? Time and time I've told you- I don't love you. 
I never have. How many times do I have to say it to your face to get it 
through your thick skull, you harlot? You're the damn reason I left the pack.
Don't think you're safe, because you're not. If you value your life, you wench, 
don't come looking for me. 
Also. 
Don't you dare prey on Vulcan like you did with me. I will  kill you.


Lydia; How are you fairing? I wasn't able to stay in the area long enough
to check up on your wounds due to Vulcan's aggression. You seemed 
happy to see me and sad to see me go. We never became friends, 
but I guess I gained your respect for saving your life. Makes sense, I suppose. 
Stay safe, and good hunting. 


Viccari; ...You have no clue as to how much I regret leaving. You're the 
only reason that I stayed for so long... you know I didn't leave the pack to
get away from you, right? I have my reasons, please trust me on this. I would have
stayed even longer if it meant making you happy... but if I stayed, Vulcan 
would attempt to take my life and Blitzen would continue to prey upon me, as she 
always has, and always will. I didn't want to cause a riot.. I want Intrepidus as a whole
to prosper, and that would be impossible with me there.. 
Onto a different subject, though. 
I've... mostly gotten over the fact that you have a child. After all, I've never met the whelp.
Perhaps you lost a hold of him long ago. It's not my business to ask, 
and you aren't going to be forced to tell me more about your previous betrothal
and how things got complicated. I'm willing to fix myself for you, if it means that 
you'll remain as a comrade- or, something more intimate than that. 
No matter what, I'll never abandon you. I left the pack, but not you. Please
remember this. You are, quite honestly, the only thing that keeps me alive. 
If it weren't for your support and fellowship, I would have taken my life the
day I broke my ties with Intrepidus. Viccari, I might not gain the confidence 
to say this anytime soon- or perhaps I'll never expose my true emotions- but I love you. 
I have the notion that you know this, though you haven't said anything about it. 
Are you too innocent to know? Are you scared because of how your 
betrothal with Placebo wound up? I'm not Placebo, that's for sure. 
But you're in no way obligated to force yourself into a romantic relationship
with me if that's not what you want. I wouldn't mind just one night alone
with you, though... 
Please stay safe. Don't let them taint you- you're more than perfect as is, 
and I think we'd all like to keep it that way. 
If you ever need emotional support, or a shoulder to cry on, I'll be 
under the Oak. I'll always be there for you, don't you ever forgot that.