Post by Angel || Cora || Rose on Jan 25, 2019 18:30:41 GMT
The Troubled Child
Theme
Voice
Theme
Voice
Lines by impalae - Design by Jirvey
Main Existance
Cursed with the name Deirdre Paine
Birthed as male
Suffered through 3 years and 4 months (25/01/19)
He has a german accent, though his accent isn't always as strong. When he feels irritated, the accent will be stronger.
Sexually straight, though he does like romantic behaviour with the same gender. However, an exeption can always happen.
Not held back by any rank
His statue is of a little bit above average height. His fur is soft and appears more like a female.
The only indecators that he is male is his voice and his underside.
Cursed with the name Deirdre Paine
Birthed as male
Suffered through 3 years and 4 months (25/01/19)
He has a german accent, though his accent isn't always as strong. When he feels irritated, the accent will be stronger.
Sexually straight, though he does like romantic behaviour with the same gender. However, an exeption can always happen.
Not held back by any rank
His statue is of a little bit above average height. His fur is soft and appears more like a female.
The only indecators that he is male is his voice and his underside.
Appearance
On first sight, Deirdre looks more like a female. His statue is a little bit above average height and his fur is soft.
The only indecators that he is male is his voice and his underside.
The image below shows some of the markings more correctly and also shows the right side of his face.
Lines by Falvie design by Jirvey
On first sight, Deirdre looks more like a female. His statue is a little bit above average height and his fur is soft.
The only indecators that he is male is his voice and his underside.
The image below shows some of the markings more correctly and also shows the right side of his face.
Lines by Falvie design by Jirvey
Burdened Personality
Deirdre has a mind that never stops thinking, constant unanswered questions and paranoid thoughts can roam free through his head.
He is pretty much done with everything before it already began. Hardly finding joy in anything. Even when he does feel happy, he would force himself out of that happy state.
He is plagued by his mistakes, everything he did not accomplish.
The male will have a hard time opening up to anyone, it will take at least 6 IC years for him to even slightly concider someone as a potential friend. But even then, he will not lay much trust into them.
The tortie is independent, well, for as independent as he can be concidered. Deirdre is mostly alone, isolating himself from canines. To him, it's the only way he can't hurt them and they can't hurt him.
Anger and irratability is something which the male struggles with. Sudden and frequent mood changes add even more chaos to his already chaotic mind.
Strengths
Knows who to pick as friends and when to break off a friendship if toxicity is detected.
Has a creative mind, he can think stories and ideas up fairly quickly.
He can occasionally take good care of himself and be kind to others. This is only when he feels good enough to do so.
Always looking for a change
Weaknesses
Self pity
Self hatred
Keeping distance from others/pushing them away
Mostly negative look on life
Always looking for a change
Deirdre has a mind that never stops thinking, constant unanswered questions and paranoid thoughts can roam free through his head.
He is pretty much done with everything before it already began. Hardly finding joy in anything. Even when he does feel happy, he would force himself out of that happy state.
He is plagued by his mistakes, everything he did not accomplish.
The male will have a hard time opening up to anyone, it will take at least 6 IC years for him to even slightly concider someone as a potential friend. But even then, he will not lay much trust into them.
The tortie is independent, well, for as independent as he can be concidered. Deirdre is mostly alone, isolating himself from canines. To him, it's the only way he can't hurt them and they can't hurt him.
Anger and irratability is something which the male struggles with. Sudden and frequent mood changes add even more chaos to his already chaotic mind.
Strengths
Knows who to pick as friends and when to break off a friendship if toxicity is detected.
Has a creative mind, he can think stories and ideas up fairly quickly.
He can occasionally take good care of himself and be kind to others. This is only when he feels good enough to do so.
Always looking for a change
Weaknesses
Self pity
Self hatred
Keeping distance from others/pushing them away
Mostly negative look on life
Always looking for a change
Mental Family Chains
His mother and father are both alive, though they are no longer together. In fact they never were.
Deirdre has 1 sisters and 1 brother, though his siblings are from a different father.
He has only gotten together with one canine, their relationship did not work out and they had to fall apart.
The male currently has no interest in any canine.
His mother and father are both alive, though they are no longer together. In fact they never were.
Deirdre has 1 sisters and 1 brother, though his siblings are from a different father.
He has only gotten together with one canine, their relationship did not work out and they had to fall apart.
The male currently has no interest in any canine.
Conflicted Bonds
If your character is on the left side, they have a bad place in Deirdre's mind. If you're in the middle, he's neutral about you but most likely still doesn't trust you. If you're on the right, you have a decent stance.
The male has only talked to one canine in PI for info, he had not made any lasting bonds or memories yet.
If your character is on the left side, they have a bad place in Deirdre's mind. If you're in the middle, he's neutral about you but most likely still doesn't trust you. If you're on the right, you have a decent stance.
Instigator
{Fears, Worried, Despises}
- Don't come near me -
{Fears, Worried, Despises}
- Don't come near me -
The male has only talked to one canine in PI for info, he had not made any lasting bonds or memories yet.
Cursed history
Deirdre was born in a regular sized pack. He was the youngest child, and the only survivor from the last litter his mother had.
His siblings were already a few months to a year older than him, though they weren't the kindest to this youngest sibling. Deirdre recieved a decent amount of attention from his parents and the older ones were jealous every now and then. There was some sort of generation bullying going on, the oldest sibling bullied the younger ones because she wanted all the attention. Then those younger siblings did the same to those who were younger than them and so on to Deirdre.
Once the pup was a few months old and could begin to recognize memories and events, he remembered being threatened to get thrown off of a cliff. Being beaten while lying on the ground and his mother having to physically block one of the older kids to prevent them from attacking Deirdre who was in a corner and could not go anywhere.
He kept on growing and the generation bullying calmed down, though his fellow packmates who trained beside him now targetted him because he always acted different, maybe it was visible that he had things going on with him. The male was physically weak and not some sort of genious but his mind was always running. He had a creative mind which preffered being in fantasy worlds instead of dealing with the hard reality which was life.
The young tortie colored male ran off at one point and was near humans, his stomach rumbled while he was looking for food. A farmer had spotted the little guy and took him in.
The bullying, even though it had stopped, had taken such a toll on him that he used physical pain in order to get relief from the internal struggle he was experiencing. He felt like he was useless and hated himself even more when he did hurt himself since to him, his problems were nothing. There were canines with actual problems out there but here he was feeling sorry for himself.
Things were going fairly okay at the farm, Deirdre had food and water whenever he needed it. Though one evening, some sort of loud noise disturbed him. He wasn't sure what it was, but the young pup stayed where he was. That was until a day or so later, a female wolfdog with two pups saw him and decided to take the pup with them. The mother and her pups seemed to be alone, though when an adult male showed up, it seemed like that was not the case.
Deirdre recieved a love-hate relationship from his father and sometimes from his mother, causing his trust and view of the world to become even more black or white. Canines were either good or bad, no inbetween. The good and bad could switch depending on what that canine did but if his trust was damaged too much, he would cut those canines off and refuse to talk to them.
Now that he became older, teenage to adult years, Deirdre's mind was struggling with mostly internal issues. Memories which he had no control over when they popped up. The male didn't know who he was since he always tried to fit in, acting like everyone else did in each different group. Almost like he had a backup of characters which he could switch to to fit in this group, then move on to the next group and act almost completely different. His personality was molded to what other canines wanted. But when he was alone, he was as quiet as anything.
He had been wanting to contact a medic or anyone who could help him with his mental health since he realized it more and more that those thoughts were getting severe to the point of him wanting to off himself. Even though he tried getting help at one point, his mind always refused him to speak. Almost like there was a more powerful version of him, telling him to not say anything or there would be concequences.
The male kept living with it until his adulthood, that was when he decided to get out of the pack, leaving everything behind without saying a word. There wasn't much he had to loose apart from a few good friends which he trusted. He only realized the mistake of leaving his friends behind once Deirdre was far away from the group.
Deirdre had thought of turning back, and at one point, he did. But the moment he arrived back at his previous place, everything was in flames. There was no warning, the weather wasn't dry enough for this to happen, right?
From then on, Deirdre just survived on his own, learning new things by himself while trying to control everything which plagued his mind. There were more things plagueing him than he could remember at once, sometimes things which he though he was over, seemed to still be there, always lingering in the back of his mind.
There were a lot of things which the male had tried to block out, making him easily forget something. The forgetting is mostly negative on him overall, his past is confusing to him and he can barely put together when what happened.
Deirdre was born in a regular sized pack. He was the youngest child, and the only survivor from the last litter his mother had.
His siblings were already a few months to a year older than him, though they weren't the kindest to this youngest sibling. Deirdre recieved a decent amount of attention from his parents and the older ones were jealous every now and then. There was some sort of generation bullying going on, the oldest sibling bullied the younger ones because she wanted all the attention. Then those younger siblings did the same to those who were younger than them and so on to Deirdre.
Once the pup was a few months old and could begin to recognize memories and events, he remembered being threatened to get thrown off of a cliff. Being beaten while lying on the ground and his mother having to physically block one of the older kids to prevent them from attacking Deirdre who was in a corner and could not go anywhere.
He kept on growing and the generation bullying calmed down, though his fellow packmates who trained beside him now targetted him because he always acted different, maybe it was visible that he had things going on with him. The male was physically weak and not some sort of genious but his mind was always running. He had a creative mind which preffered being in fantasy worlds instead of dealing with the hard reality which was life.
The young tortie colored male ran off at one point and was near humans, his stomach rumbled while he was looking for food. A farmer had spotted the little guy and took him in.
The bullying, even though it had stopped, had taken such a toll on him that he used physical pain in order to get relief from the internal struggle he was experiencing. He felt like he was useless and hated himself even more when he did hurt himself since to him, his problems were nothing. There were canines with actual problems out there but here he was feeling sorry for himself.
Things were going fairly okay at the farm, Deirdre had food and water whenever he needed it. Though one evening, some sort of loud noise disturbed him. He wasn't sure what it was, but the young pup stayed where he was. That was until a day or so later, a female wolfdog with two pups saw him and decided to take the pup with them. The mother and her pups seemed to be alone, though when an adult male showed up, it seemed like that was not the case.
Deirdre recieved a love-hate relationship from his father and sometimes from his mother, causing his trust and view of the world to become even more black or white. Canines were either good or bad, no inbetween. The good and bad could switch depending on what that canine did but if his trust was damaged too much, he would cut those canines off and refuse to talk to them.
Now that he became older, teenage to adult years, Deirdre's mind was struggling with mostly internal issues. Memories which he had no control over when they popped up. The male didn't know who he was since he always tried to fit in, acting like everyone else did in each different group. Almost like he had a backup of characters which he could switch to to fit in this group, then move on to the next group and act almost completely different. His personality was molded to what other canines wanted. But when he was alone, he was as quiet as anything.
He had been wanting to contact a medic or anyone who could help him with his mental health since he realized it more and more that those thoughts were getting severe to the point of him wanting to off himself. Even though he tried getting help at one point, his mind always refused him to speak. Almost like there was a more powerful version of him, telling him to not say anything or there would be concequences.
The male kept living with it until his adulthood, that was when he decided to get out of the pack, leaving everything behind without saying a word. There wasn't much he had to loose apart from a few good friends which he trusted. He only realized the mistake of leaving his friends behind once Deirdre was far away from the group.
Deirdre had thought of turning back, and at one point, he did. But the moment he arrived back at his previous place, everything was in flames. There was no warning, the weather wasn't dry enough for this to happen, right?
From then on, Deirdre just survived on his own, learning new things by himself while trying to control everything which plagued his mind. There were more things plagueing him than he could remember at once, sometimes things which he though he was over, seemed to still be there, always lingering in the back of his mind.
There were a lot of things which the male had tried to block out, making him easily forget something. The forgetting is mostly negative on him overall, his past is confusing to him and he can barely put together when what happened.
