Post by Antonias on Feb 24, 2020 5:23:27 GMT
Guess I shouldn't be surprised this happened, kinda expected a snap before now, honestly. Normally, I'm an exceedingly patient guy, maybe a little TOO patient, and possibly even too nice sometimes. Anyone who actually knows me worth a damn and actually cares to value that can truly attest to this. That, and I try to keep a lot of issues of mine under wraps, so as to not dump them on others. They're usually my problems to work out, and see no need to involve someone else unless they caused it.
That being said, however, it's time I drop out for the time being. I might keep a stiff upper lip on a lot, right up until I see issues like one I saw today. Honestly, the lack of patience in the situation was bad enough. The fact there was something I was going to handle (nothing serious, so don't have a damn panic attack) myself to help the pack out and then to have another step in and proceed when I was willing to deal with it, and not to mention had the time to help as well, that lack of respect, was not OK. I can handle a lot, but not being disrespected or basically insulted like that, not after having to deal with that for years from people I knew in my life that I thought I could count on. Intentional or not, it happened. I will say that was a kick in the gut, and I ain't happy about it. After how long I've been with this group as well, I won't let something like that slide either. I've been on a hair-trigger with my temper and mood these past couple months as it is, so to have this happen, wrong place wrong time.
Topping matters off, I have always been willing to roleplay and interact with everyone both in character and out, and over the past few months, I have quite literally gone from always being down to roleplay, to barely even being able to come up with a single coherent roleplay paragraph, which has also limited character development on a few others I had wanted to use to get away from my main character. It's honestly led to me getting bored, and half the time ignoring or muting the Discord server while I do other things.
In any event. Due to the situation, I'm dipping until I cool off. Between other situations outside of the group that have actually severely and negatively affected my emotional health to where I have had multiple break downs since this year started, and now being angered by this, I'd rather not have my now free-floating aggression causing me to lash out unpredictably at random people, most who haven't done me wrong. It wouldn't be fair, as I also remember how we also have a few bitter shit-stirs before, and I'd rather not fall into that same category, I've got more dignity than THAT at the most.
Is this going to be permanent? I doubt it. As stated, I merely need cool down time. I'll return to the Discord when I feel the time is right, and maybe *try* to chat it up again, and I shall also be keeping this forum account active to at least try to stay in touch, and maybe give an update or not in the meantime. That is unless otherwise told to get lost for good, whichever comes first.
That being said, however, it's time I drop out for the time being. I might keep a stiff upper lip on a lot, right up until I see issues like one I saw today. Honestly, the lack of patience in the situation was bad enough. The fact there was something I was going to handle (nothing serious, so don't have a damn panic attack) myself to help the pack out and then to have another step in and proceed when I was willing to deal with it, and not to mention had the time to help as well, that lack of respect, was not OK. I can handle a lot, but not being disrespected or basically insulted like that, not after having to deal with that for years from people I knew in my life that I thought I could count on. Intentional or not, it happened. I will say that was a kick in the gut, and I ain't happy about it. After how long I've been with this group as well, I won't let something like that slide either. I've been on a hair-trigger with my temper and mood these past couple months as it is, so to have this happen, wrong place wrong time.
Topping matters off, I have always been willing to roleplay and interact with everyone both in character and out, and over the past few months, I have quite literally gone from always being down to roleplay, to barely even being able to come up with a single coherent roleplay paragraph, which has also limited character development on a few others I had wanted to use to get away from my main character. It's honestly led to me getting bored, and half the time ignoring or muting the Discord server while I do other things.
In any event. Due to the situation, I'm dipping until I cool off. Between other situations outside of the group that have actually severely and negatively affected my emotional health to where I have had multiple break downs since this year started, and now being angered by this, I'd rather not have my now free-floating aggression causing me to lash out unpredictably at random people, most who haven't done me wrong. It wouldn't be fair, as I also remember how we also have a few bitter shit-stirs before, and I'd rather not fall into that same category, I've got more dignity than THAT at the most.
Is this going to be permanent? I doubt it. As stated, I merely need cool down time. I'll return to the Discord when I feel the time is right, and maybe *try* to chat it up again, and I shall also be keeping this forum account active to at least try to stay in touch, and maybe give an update or not in the meantime. That is unless otherwise told to get lost for good, whichever comes first.
